the exams are over. the de-brief is tomorrow. yet i know that it isnt something i look forward to. i know that i didnt put in 100% effort to study for the exam. i know that i would have done alot better if i had put more time into it. i know that it was a mistake to try and mug the night before.
things went wrong when i least expected it to. but it's been happening recently. i wonder why. i dont know if it was stupid or silly of me to stick by you during the easter weekend. i dont know if i should have just burried my heads in the books. i dont know if things might have been better if i didnt agree to go for dinner, and the car wouldnt stuff up on us. i dont know if i did the right thing by trying to get u up to study only to hear u scream at me. i dont know if ....
but one things i know, is that i wont let history repeat itself. it shouldnt and wouldnt happen again. if not, this time... i'll hate myself for not being prepared.
till today, i cant forget the blank mind i had on fri when i took the exams. it was one of the experiences that i felt would never happen after what happen during A levels...or all the bio from J1 and J2... but the exam paper is still on my mind. it's difficult to try and believe that things will go smoothy, when i know deep down that it wont. i'm so bothered by the exam. my conscience is plaguing me. it really is.
- * - * - * - * - * - * - * - mummmy n dadddy, please dont be angry with me when u get my results. that's all i can ask for now.
