yes, i know sometimes i put u in a difficult spot. i know i expect you to take time out for me... i kinda want u to spend time with me.. but, i do understand that you need to spend time with your family. i dont blame you for having to go home on weekends,even trying to do my own things on weekends so that i dont feel so lost..i dont get angry with the fact that friday and saturday nights (the nights that most couples go out and have a nice romantic dinner...) are nights to spend on my own. but i cant go crawl back home each week to my family after having a tough week at uni.. if i could, i would. but i cant. and u know that it is not possible to take a 7 hour flight home each weekend....
it's hard to feel loved yet unloved n unimportant. i know u dont mean to neglect me...or to not spend time with me.....
i knew ur sis was coming back from hk today...and that she wld probably arrive either early in the morning or later tonight... i know that u wanteed to spend time with her, go wait for her at the airport with ur family, uncle n cousin..and tt u wld be all eager and excited to see ur jiejie.. u probably have been waiting for this day for sometime, since afterall, who wldnt be excited when their sibling(s) they havent seen in a long time come back... what i;m upset about is not the fact that u arent spending time with me.. i;m upset over the fact that u seemed to have decided to go back home today n u kept telling me that 'u'll see first'...
what's really really bugging me is that everyone seems to have such loving bfs. maybe cos the exams are just ard the corner...and u know, everyone is just trying their best to study hard and do well..and all the bfs are super understanding at this time, looking after their gfs, driving them ard, surprising them with supper and little sweet notes of encouragement... or even the cup of coffee when u know that they are trying to stay up to finish all their notes... walking their gfs from lects to tutes or to lunch.. or even helping them look for past exam papers (remember some guys in my class painstakingly photocopy this whole bunch of exam papers for their girls just before prelims in j2)... some bfs even bother to cook dinner for their gfs or go buy their fave foods for them so that they can concentrate on their revision.. and most importantly, make them feel loved. i know it is not something that u can buy, but u know... feeling loved is the best feeling u can get...esp when u have heaps of notes to cramp into a tiny brain..
i dont expect u to do any of the above. it would be really sweet if u would...
dont expect u to be a superb baobei, or all those sweet sensitive new age guys u often hear about on telly.... but cld u just show some care n concern..
the sormui cries. ur silly sormui. (2x the silliness since sor already means silly).. but yes, i;m hurting inside.
