when you see someone you love so dearly looking so troubled and miserable, the instict is for you to ask what's troubling the person. but what happens after you ask the person and you find out the misery is cause of all these thoughts they've been having abt us?
i had a really long tuesday night. it was more like wed morning when this whole conversation ended. but it left me in lots and lots of tears. yes, i know i've cried so often that somehow i wonder if there is something wrong with my tear ducts...how is it possible that there are suddenly so much tears welled up in my eyes.
i kinda expected the conversation we had. i didnt expect you to be frustrated over the fact that you needed time to study, i didnt expect you to come to that conclusion.. i didnt expect you to say the words you did, esp with that straight face. i know you didnt plan the whole conversation, and you didnt plan what you wanted to say... but you did want to bring it up a long time ago, and you were probably just waiting for the right moment to open up and break a kiddie's heart.
it's funny how you can love someone so dearly, yet in the very same sentence, try and not love the person at all.
'if you love me, you should let me study and wait till after the exams. if we still love each other then, we can continue this relationship'... but for now, 'we'll just take a break'
