i promised to give you time to sort out your life. i promised to let you grow. i promised to give you space. i promised to let us just be friends, maybe not just friends, but best friends. i promised to not be annoying. i promised to move on if i needed to. but at the same time, i promised you that i still loved you. i promised to trust you. i promised a lots of things and i've tried my best to live up to my promises.
i want to trust you, i really do. and i'm trying each and every day to trust you. i want to give you space, i really do.. but at the same time, i want to spend time with you. each minute i;m not with you, i do miss you. i miss having you by my side. i miss having u watch me fall asleep. i miss watching all my lame shit shows with you, and yet not having u complain. i miss forcing u to do work. i miss asking u to hurry up or to eat faster. i miss getting to do the dishes. i miss being able to whine and whine and whine, and you not complain. i miss having you go check my mail and going thru the letter. i miss running after the bus with you. i miss having to cook for you. i miss washing and ironing your clothes. i miss packing ur file and bag, even though u tell me off for it. i miss just having you by my side.
i know you want better things for me. i know you still care lots for me, but please dont try and tell me than any one else is better for me. i know you worry that i'll be bored and lonely. i know you always ask me to go spend time with my friends so i wont be alone. i know you try your hardest to make me happy. i know you do all these little things to make me smile. i know you really do care. i really do know. and i know that i still do love you.
so i;m giving you time to grow, to do the things you need to do. and i'm giving myself time to trust you, i really am trying to trust you. yes, i;m still angry that you wanted to break up on new years eve. i'm angry that you choose monday arvos for basketball instead of spending it with me. i'm angry that you always seem pre-occupied when i try and play 7 hand poker on msn with you. i'm angry that you cant always pei wo. but i;m learning to let go, to take joy in the things we do together, no matter how small they might seem to others. i really am learning to trust you. i'm not finished with loving you, cos i know you will always be my sunshine & i that i do love you ; )
i know 'we can be extraordinary together, rather than ordinary apart'.
