'not be with the person you want to spend the rest of your life with, but with the person you cant spend the rest of your life without'
aint it sweet?
loving you is most painful. it seriously is. i know you want all this time to get your life back together, that you want to get everything going before you actually consider getting back into a relationship. that being best friends is the best way to still be close but not in a relationship.. but the reality of the whole situation jsut suxs. it seriously does.
i hate it that you take the care and concern for granted. i hate it that you know that i will never get upset or unhappy with you. i hate it that you take my feeling for granted. and i absolutely hate it how u try and hide things from me... and that each time u spend time with me, all u tell ur dad is that you are in surgery., am i jsut a patient lying on the surgical table, waiting to be cut, chopped and stitched back together? am i someone that is so 'diseased' that you cant even tell your parents you are out with me. i dont understand why you are so ashamed of spending time with me.
i just dont understand. you;ve changed. the values you used to hold close, are things you place NO emphasis on. you have morphed into someone your parents will love. but someone with no reason, no compassion, no heart. and you are the one who is truly heartless.
love is all about commitment ansd sacrifice. and i;ve done enough for you as a friend. and i;m just tired. so treat me right. that the least i deserve, right?
ps. i know u wont read this till it is all too late. when one day u wake up and realise that i dont care about you.. or that i dont answer ur calls. and i dont give a shit about what you are going through...and when u decide to look back n wonder what went wrong.. but that's ok. you often dont know. and never will.
pps. best friends dont lie. so dont lie to me. i;ve had enough of lies.
